What should I do (presentation,.) Need

So in German she wants everyone to give a lecture on Tuesday. I find it very difficult and she also wants us to turn on cameras. I've been scared / panic attacks about it all the time. More on this and in general about this social fear or situations with which I do not get along (is undiagnosed) here

and I've already thought of some excuses. Either I write to her that drinking on my laptop has expired and it will take time until a new laptop arrives and no sound comes out on my cell phone / ipad during the conferences (which is even true since we use such a strange website).

Or I pretend my camera is broken or write to her beforehand that my laptop is a bit older and that is why my camera or my microphone doesn't work either

Or I tell her the truth that all of this mentally overwhelms me and that happens often and also explains why I haven't even reported to class for 2-3 years. And yes that I had a nervous breakdown in class with her when she said that we had to recite poetry (luckily we couldn't get around to it, but that was really so that I started having a panic attack completely simply, I'm someone who very reluctantly crying in front of others or trying not to do it but then it was too much). With the variant there's probably a problem and one of my friends has family problems that are causing her psychological breakdown and she called the teacher that she is not doing well at the moment and the teacher might think I'm only writing her because my friend is saying that and it worked for her and that's why I don't want to or something like that is not the case.

or I can get sick on the internet but then I have to keep it a week later and it would be via the parents' portal and I don't know if my mum will get emails then

You are putting all your energy into avoiding this presentation. Use the time better to develop and then you present it. Sounds easy, it is too, human, be a man!

You can't and must NOT ESCAPE yourself from challenges. I would be ashamed of such crude excuses!

(School) life certainly has much bigger problems in store for you!

So get out of your snail shell!

Of course, before giving the presentation, read it loudly and slowly and artificially over and over again, ideally in front of a few listeners (family, friends).
After reading aloud several times, look less and less at the text, i.e. More and more try to speak some sentences / passages reasonably freely.
When things get serious: keep turning your gaze from the text template.
Turning more and more your gaze to the audience (who is your target group anyway? Class, adults?).
If you are unsure (I don't want to stare at someone all the time!), Alternatively look for a point in the room that you fix occasionally instead.
TAKE BREAKS again and again - both for you and for the audience; correct (!) breaks, not just 5 seconds!
Questions to the audience: "Do you understand that?" "Shall I explain the last thought in more detail?" (Makes a huge impression - really!)
If you are giving a lecture on the desk / podium: keep your arms / hands fixed, at least do not wave restlessly through the air.
However, body language is very important: no pillar of salt, please!
And again: speak slowly, clearly, articulated! BREAK between individual thoughts!

From where I know this? I moderate archeology congresses every year, but also give a presentation at the congresses to between 500 and 1000 spectators and listeners.

pk

From where I know this:

own experience

Okey then you know this panic I don't appreciate and I mean not only with lectures but in everyday situations…

i will give you an example. Let's say you're terrified of heights. And everyone says to you come go bungee jumping with us is not that bad, just do it.

It is difficult to add any more excuses to YOUR excuses as to why you want to run ahead of - for YOU - insurmountable challenges. This time that you needed to look for everything together for yourself in order to refuse something normal would have made more sense to take care of the tasks.

Imagine all the necks - they all have the same buttocks.

If you run away, you clear your place in life - the place that should be YOURS. When you have learned, you can master this task too. You just have to be confident enough to believe in YOU.

Challenges are there to be mastered.

Step by step… Please start and don't run away from yourself.

In my head there's only one way out… My thoughts fight against the last hopes of…

You should rather not generate new questions every minute why you NOT… But start to get your head out of the sand and face reality by starting to do your homework. And "Theatrical"… My thoughts fight against the last hopes to match… Don't match your other many questions. Sit on your but and face the task like millions of others do.

Jumping can't be compared to your unfounded fear of a presentation. You can speak and read - fly… Not

Bungee jumping is secured

Do what you want - nice that you can quickly find arguments for everything, why… Not…

That speaks for you - then quickly find an argument for the unfounded fear of starting a certainly successful attempt to master the "hurdle" presentation. You're just scared that you're embarrassed. Would you prefer a bad review? Excellent!

Then nobody will be proud of you - and YOU could become proud of YOU - when you have overcome your cowardice.

Yes I understand. But look such a lecture is just reading something down. You don't even have to stand in front of the class now. Do your thing and it's good. It's not a casting. Do it the best you can and then it will be fine.