I want to run away, what do I need for that?

I'm female and 13 years old. Before you say something stupid, listen first and please put me in my position.
My parents are divorced and I live with my mother. My father hit her, which is why we all had some traumatic experiences. My big sister (17) beats me brutally. She says to me today that she will kill me and she wishes that a bus would hit me.

She is as freaked out as my mother. She screeches and pulls herself on the wait and hits me. I have a red eye because of her. She has aggression, at least I think so. You and my mother are the same. This is normal in our family. We're Kurds, which is why nobody takes me seriously.

I don't want to live here anymore. It's so toxic. But I don't want to call the youth welfare office either. I just wanna go I want to take my cell phone, some money, a backpack and my laptop with me. I want everything gone except the most important things. It is too much.
I'm so overwhelmed.
My family is completely disturbed and I'm scared of ending up like them. I can't stop crying. But please understand that I don't want to call the youth welfare office.

I don't want to go anywhere else. I actually want to stay here, but I feel stressed and cramped. I just want to do what I want.
My little brother will end up like that too.

I'm afraid. Do you know what I could use? If the police find me, I'll feel even better than that. I just want to do it so that people notice that I'm not doing well. Nobody takes me seriously because it is normal for us foreigners.
I even have videos of my sister yelling at me today. "I'll kill you with a knife" "I hope you get hit by a bus" that's not normal. She steps on me like I'm a toy. I need urgent help.

please try to understand me.

Turn to the youth welfare office the best morning

If the police find you, they will automatically inform the youth welfare office.

That wouldn't be so bad for me then. I just don't want to call. I'm afraid of it and have no idea. I wish someone else could do this. I don't want to regret it either. What if my life then completely goes down the creek

You have evidence of your sister screaming death threats in your face? Call in the police immediately.

If you don't want to call in the police or the youth welfare office, then I really advise you to leave as soon as possible.

The best thing to do is to move in with a friend, start a part-time job (rent that you can live with the friend) and try to avoid your family. But I would go to school and try to explain the situation to your teacher so that he / she doesn't call your mother (because of unsigned exams, etc.).

Nobody should have to experience something like that and I feel sorry for you. I also understand that you want to leave. But alone on the street… You can't do that. You are a child and you surely don't want anything bad to happen to you either. With little money and in the weather you won't last long. If you are actually picked up by the police, the officers will also hand you over to the youth welfare office. There's no other option.

Do you have no one who can help you and where you can maybe be for a few days until you can talk to the youth welfare office?

Thank you, i don't really have friends who would just let me live with them but this helped me, thank you really

Yes, I thought so too, no, unfortunately not. My friends' parents would definitely not let me live with them. But thank you that helped me!

No problem, I would let you stay with me, but well, I don't think Switzerland is that close 😅

The best thing to do is to try to explain your current situation to your "best" friends and ask if you can stay the night. Because if they have even a little heart, they will surely say yes. Try to get out of here as soon as possible, but not tonight or something until you really have a place to stay. Until then, try to act normally, because if your family suspects it can be even more dangerous or, depending on the situation, they will just kick you out.

Thank you! You really helped me a lot, I hope you have a nice day!

Youth Welfare Office is eigtl best, as already written above. You don't need to be afraid, they'll listen to you first and make suggestions on how to proceed. If you don't want to call there, you can just go to the opening times. Perhaps there's also a girls' house in the city, they could give advice first and, in an emergency, possibly take you in overnight. Wish you all the best.

Thank you