I can't take it any longer. Constraints determine my life. Regardless of whether it is "two itchy feet" or open the door 3 or 4 times. I can't do it anymore.
Sometimes I break down crying while z. B I'm about to open and close my laptop 5 times. Oh god, and I can never tell my parents. I just CAN'T🙈
And the worst part is that the constraints have not stayed. I have depersonalization and delrealization. I'm like in a tunnel. Like in a computer game in which I'm controlled. And when I look at myself in the mirror, I think who this strange, weird person in the mirror is, please?!
Even if you don't want to, talking to your parents is the first important step. Then you can look for a solution together.
Such constraints can also be suppressed with discipline as long as they are not yet too pronounced.
What constraints
Visit a psychotherapist
I really can't. I panic and just have to do it😕
You could also tell a teacher that you have what you want to talk about because you don't know what to do. They could help you address your parents if you don't dare alone. What do you think your parents are doing? That is not a bad constraint
Hmm, I don't know😕 I just feel abnormal: /
So I also have these obsessive thoughts (read this text 30 times, otherwise you die, close the door, open it again and close it again and that within 5sec) and have learned to deal with it.
You should probably accept your constraints or go to a psychologist.
Then you should look for professional help.
I suffer from compulsions (since 2013) and what you say sounds like a compulsion to act (compulsory ritual) and compulsion to control. But self-diagnosis is not possible at first. If you're really worried, find a psychologist. Believe me, the constraints become less if you join in there and do what the psychologist tells you! ^^
So I wouldn't say abnormal, there are a lot of people with something like that. And that can get so much better if you look for help early instead of waiting until you can't get out of the house. Your parents will surely also listen to you if you tell them that it is stressful for you
Thank you❤️
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As I said, I also have compulsory action (compulsory ritual) and compulsory control. I know how you feel, please! ^^
