I have not been doing well for a long time. To me: I'm 18 years old and still go to school. In my class I understand myself so well. That means that there have already been several confrontations, but not that it would be very stressful. Enough of it. More worried me what's wrong with me. I'm a loner, not that really likes 24/7 alone, but that's unfortunately. I hardly have any friends, either it is something minimal that quickly breaks down again, or I lost my true ones. I shed a lot of people, partly because of my uncontrollable mood swings. I have extremely fears for the future, I have a real FEAR of it. I often have panic attacks, I think. I have had really strong attacks, with collapses and such. But right now that's weird, a bsp. This morning I sat in the bus to school. I looked out the window. All of a sudden, I could barely breathe, this air did not get through very often, so I always wanted to get down to it. What works normally very well, not today, I ran out of the bus at the next stop because I had the feeling to choke right away. I'm barely happy, either always in a neutral mood, sad or angry. I become aggressive very fast. I insult, insult. I try to stay factual, but that does not always work. If something does not work, I have against it, my laptop has felt that. I would never do anything to a person, beat him or anything like that before I have no qualms. But I'm ashamed of myself. I did not have too much children. My parents are separated and I have always tried to make the best of it. But I'm fed up, I have no strength left. I can fall asleep badly, I need at least 10 hours of sleep, with less I sleep part of the day for a few minutes away. I was already at the doctor, I was diagnosed with gastric inflammation / esophagitis - that would come from stress and mental stress. I should contact a therapist. Do you think that sounds depressive? I know that long-distance diagnoses are difficult. But maybe someone of you has similar experiences, experiences. Thanks for reading and thank you in advance for the answers.
Depressed now not necessarily. But the idea with the psychologist is good, you should also go after it. Talk to him and try to reduce stress. Maybe that helps. Otherwise, you can access mood enhancers or the like.
Much stress can cause physical symptoms, even those as you describe. Have the same thing, that I get irritated and aggressive under a lot of stress, among other things.
I think I'll think about going to one.
With you, there seems to be an emotional clutter.
Panic and shortness of air can cause many things.
You should describe these symptoms to a psychiatrist.
I think you're currently at the "right address".
You're right, remote diagnostics are difficult and above all, they should be left to a doctor! There you could also clarify whether what you experience now and then (like last on the bus) are panic attacks. If your doctor determines that you have an anxiety disorder, there are some treatment options.
Here, the so-called cognitive behavioral therapy has proven itself. On the one hand you get to know strategies for coping with stress and on the other hand how the fear is generated by your own fantasies and catastrophic thoughts. The aim of the therapy is to confront the person with anxiety-provoking situations and to show them that they can endure the fear and how they can best be managed.
While there are some very effective anti-anxiety medications, they should, at best, be taken only temporarily or used as emergency medications (because they usually have high dependence potential). Because anxiety is based on one's own thinking, medications alone can't bring any lasting improvement. It is much more important to recognize and address the underlying causes.
You're probably wondering what you can do yourself against the fear. One option for self-help is e.g. The progressive muscle relaxation. Through this proven method, you can experience a wonderful deep relaxation. The progressive muscle relaxation is not difficult to learn and in the trade there are corresponding CDs. You can also find many information and tutorials on the net.
Experiencing a panic attack can unsettle you and further fuel your fear. But be aware that a panic attack, bad as it is at the moment, can't kill you! The panic comes from thoughts and fantasies, and therefore it is possible to overcome them by learning to control one's thoughts.
You'll probably have noticed that you tend to avoid situations that trigger fears in you. That is understandable, but it is the wrong way! The more often you avoid these situations, the more you feel that you can't stand the fear. However, if you stay in the situation as far as possible, or even expose yourself to it consciously (under the guidance of a therapist, of course), you will realize that fear does not destroy you and that you can finally overcome it.
What also helps to calm down is the abdominal breathing. This technique is also very easy to learn, and within a few minutes can make you feel more relaxed internally. You can't relax and be scared at the same time. Therefore, relaxation techniques are also so effective at anxiety. One way to perform the abdominal breathing, you can find here:
https://utopia.de/ratgeber/atemuebungen-diese-uebungen-solltest-du-kennen/
Remember also: Irrational fear is a learned feeling that one can unlearn again! Of course, this does not happen overnight, but it will take some time. But it is important to keep in mind that the fear does not have to accompany you for a lifetime. Under therapeutic guidance there are good chances to completely overcome fears.
On the other hand, it would be unrealistic to believe that a totally fearless life is possible. There's always something in life that triggers fears in one way or another. What can you do then?
For someone who believes in God, The thought helps that he sees us and cares about each one. The writer of a psalm had also recognized this, for he said in a prayer: "When I was overcome with sorrow, you comforted and comforted me" (Psalm 94:19, NW 2013). Is not that a nice and helpful thought?
I wish you the help and support you need to gradually overcome your fears. Do not be discouraged if it all takes a while. Remember that many have done it before you! Why should not you succeed then?