Yesterday I smoked an e-cigarette with CBD filling with two friends and it was a nice evening in itself, but I should have avoided the last round of steaming. I had clearly exaggerated it, but did not even notice that I had apparently smoked far too much until it suddenly blew me away.
It seemed to me as if I would only see 2 pictures a second and even this would not realize, to that I could no longer think firmly (There were infinite funny meaningless thoughts that appeared briefly and immediately disappeared again and it was impossible to capture one of them or to remember).
On top of that came the feeling that I could see my true self and in general into every person and it was not a pretty sight… As if all humans were nothing special and insignificant (is difficult to explain, vlt it came from me so shocked by how much the human body (including mind) can be affected by a substance, that one is unable to do anything (not even thinking went)).
This in turn had a disgusting feeling, accompanied by panic, triggered in me what came to my knowledge. 2 years ago I had an extremely strong depressive mood 2 months ago in which I really saw no hope ever to be happy again. That sat very deep and firm in my chest and felt cold and empty, which made me feel so emotionless. I can describe it hard…
Anyway, I needed a lot of time, patience and distraction to get out of this deep hellhole. And during the hell's trip yesterday, I felt just that feeling (+ an extreme sense of panic (probably because I was thinking and hoping I would never feel that again)). Already during the horror trip I was briefly aware of the thought carousel, that I will now catch up with all the old stuff again through the hell's trip…
And now I'm sitting here (the evening after) in front of the laptop, with the anxiety and panic exactly in this track to slip (because the depressive, heavy, cold, empty feeling in the chest is actually back (though not so strong like I did 2 years ago, but that's about how it started then).
I'm only 20 years old and that would be my second "depression" and it's true that the likelihood of developing depression increases with every new depressive mood or depression, which worries me even more that I do not will be better. I also admit that I've been dissatisfied with a lot of things for ages, and I fail many times and a lot (in certain ways), which may also contribute to the depression. I just have a terrible fear to have that feeling again (have it already) and not to be understood and to be lonely. What can I do against it?
I can already imagine that's true. When I got together with the guy mentioned on my profile, he was still a drug addict. He had managed to stand alone with me (isolated) and with my help. After a few weeks, however, he was very restless, had fears, could no longer. I agreed then that he tried CBD because I wanted to help him. So we brought the stuff in a shop and he was all by the turn quieter. Then he tried it, he did not feel anything, but it calms him for the moment so that he can fall asleep. I also tried it on the same day to get a picture of myself. After only 2-3 moves I felt weird, I felt tired but my thoughts drove carousel…
So I think of that as well as THC. For me it was an extremely lousy experience because I felt locked in myself, I was intoxicated by it, I felt awful and felt that I was inwardly worse and that was enough for me.
That's the reason why I can do it, as you described. I also find your explanation about depression understandable and possible that it could be triggered by it. Therefore, keep away from it. If you smoke it as a liquid, it will certainly do more, even if there's no THC in it.
So from personal experience, I would personally advise against. I advise against any drugs anyway. I'm certainly not a moralist, I have my own experiences and know that it is not a solution and will never be for anyone. I like to drink a nice tender red wine for a steak but drugs… Where should this lead… Because we do not grasp reality?
Honestly, the solution lies in the conscious perception of life. I had to wander through deep, gloomy valleys myself. But only the sober reality that you can always create yourself has always helped.
Much power!
First of all, alcohol is by far the most dangerous drug,
second, cbd does not cause intoxication
and thirdly, drugs are a very important tool for humanity that some can't handle properly, but with every tool.
(I was helped by one-time mdma consumption from my depression)
That's exactly what I was writing. Could not have summarized it better. Thumbs up
You already realize that drugs can affect everyone individually… Basically, you should appreciate your own life, especially if you are healthy and if nothing helps you should entrust yourself to a doctor instead rumzuexperimentieren…
Everyone is responsible for their own life!
Sorry, but that sounds like your opinion of BigPharma bought
Cbd does NOT cause 100000% no frenzy that is at most no more conceit.
I think alcohol is far worse than many other things.
That does not sound like CBD, it's not that psychoactive. Sure THC was not there?
Find a good therapist and keep your hands off such stuff!
"He who puts himself in danger, deals in it!"
No one has to get intoxicated in his life - no matter what! If someone says otherwise, there's also a lack of self-confidence and you want to talk to someone else and just something nice.
