I have a behavior problem when I get angry. I just can't control myself and I have to throw things around, even break things. I kind of need to physically let out the anger. I don't like that myself. But somehow it happens again and again, although I've been receiving weekly therapy for 10 months. My therapist speaks or hears me. But I haven't done any exercise against my aggression. Or is it just not done? I want to change my behavior. But I'm still like this… How are you when you get really angry?
Something like this just happened, for example. I asked my husband to help me with one thing, but he wasn't fully involved and that annoyed me so much and told him that he wasn't fully involved and that it really annoys me said that he is not there because the task is so boring for him. That also annoyed me because I thought he only helps me when something is funny or something? Then I told him exactly that (out loud, of course) and he replied just as loudly that it was just boring, then I told him to shut up, and he was very pissed off and yelled at me about what was wrong with me and that I'm stupid etc then I was pissed and threw the laptop that was on the shot on the sofa on the left, he said he bought this etc so we argued and I threw things, then he said that he would hurt me if I didn't stop. He was squeezing my arm very tightly and it's now a big bruise. Whenever I'm very angry, I always have to slam doors or throw things. If I don't do them, I feel like I'm exploding… Could you please recommend something. How can I change this situation?
Fold hands and count to 50.