I feel bad about my parents paying me so much?

I'm 19 years old and have been studying since this month. Since I chose a fashion course, I was unfortunately not accepted at the various (few) universities in my city, which is why I opted for a private university because I don't want to move from home and move to another city yet.

My bachelor's degree costs around 12,000 euro which is a lot of money.

My parents earn well, but that's still a lot of money and I just feel really bad that I haven't achieved anything in life and that I just get it.

In addition, there are costs like a laptop (I've shared one with my sister so far because I've never needed one). Then my parents finance my driver's license for me. In addition, contact lenses / my glasses, which is not a little money.

I'm kind of ashamed of it, but I don't have any money to pay everything back at the moment. I would also like to look for a part-time job, but there are difficulties due to Corona.

My sister, on the other hand, has almost successfully completed a free course of study, she earns money on the side and is generally an intelligent person.

How can I deal with the situation? I just have a guilty conscience all the time and I already felt bad when I bought a nail polish yesterday (or went shopping with my mother and she bought it).

In any case, you should help with the household and continue looking for a part-time job. Contact lenses wouldn't be a must if you have glasses just like nail polish do you understand what I mean? You can do without that if you are uncomfortable

When I bought a nail polish yesterday

so do you squander your parents' money?

Ashamed of them and give the nail polish back and say that you don't want their inheritance either, or are you so greedy that you wanted to kill your parents for the inheritance?

Finish your studies with good grades. This is how you make your parents happy. Part-time jobs only cost time and are distracting.

Look this way, later you will pay for your parents. Therefore, it is also in their interest that you have a good degree and a job. So far I've got 5400 euro a year from my parents for rent, food, etc. I felt just like you and now applied for a 450 euro job at Lidl. Tomorrow is the interview. But I also prefer to work myself than to lie on my parents' pockets for longer. My mother advised me not to do it and said I should concentrate on my studies. My father doesn't really care either, but I do it for myself.